This week’s task, What Makes YOU Happy? ....... What makes me happy??????? What makes me happy???????? Ummmmmmm Well, I really don’t know!!!
Where was I to begin? I read through Deb’s challenge post and couldn’t even think about everyday things that made me happy. Now I am not depressed but perhaps I am not as happy as I should be or WANT to be!!!
I began to write a list (in no order at all), but they were all ‘bigger’ things or things that didn’t happen very often, it seemed that not much on an everyday level made me happy.
· A tidy, orderly home
· Family relaxation time, such as holidays
· Seeing extended family
· School Holidays – no routine
· Living in our quiet town
· Seeing two blue lines on a pregnancy test
· An empty ironing basket
· Watching movies
· Reading
· Cooking
· Actually finishing one of my many projects
· Getting random letters, emails, sms from friends or family just saying hi, or I love you!
· Going to markets
Why couldn’t I connect enough to see everyday moments? This task was supposed to help me identify my happiness....... I continued all week to think and notice smaller things; again this list is no order
· Being a stay at home mum
· Having dinner every night with my family at the dining table
· Seeing my friends
· Watching my children play sport
· Taking photos
I was really getting down at my lack of connection. And I know that if anyone is actually reading this list – haha – then you are probably thinking that this list is pretty good, put I just feel as though I am missing the whole point of the task, considering the second part of the challenge was to try incorporate at least one happiness point into our everyday lives – haha pretty difficult to incorporate having an empty ironing basket everyday when I hate ironing!!!! Is this all my life is????
Surely, there’s more to me?? Ok maybe if I tried harder,
· Seeing my children first thing in the morning all sleepy and smiling
· Picking my children up from school and seeing the smiling faces and they run up to me and hug me with a big Hi Mum!!
· The sun shining
· Washing hanging on the line, swaying in the wind
· Curled up next to my husband at night
· Watching my baby girl discover the world
· Laying in bed on a day when we don’t have to be anywhere
· Walks at night with my husband
· Watching my older children play/laugh/talk together, especially at night when they whisper from their beds (from their own rooms) all about their day
· Laying on the couch, doing not much at all after a looooong night with a sick baby
· Looking at photos
· Watching the sun shine through my bedroom windows
· Eating dinner that has been cooked by my husband
· Having quiet one on one time with my husband
· Breastfeeding
· Hugging all of my babies – big and small!!!
· Having quiet dark snuggles with my little baby in the middle of the night
· Eating pancakes.
So, I at least compiled some kind of happiness list, still feeling disconnected and unable to incorporate things into my day to day life to increase my happiness levels. But maybe I am missing the point of the challenge........